I'm hopeless but hoping ♥

I'm lazy.
And stressed about school.
And exhausted.
 
Seniors last day is Monday.
So some of my friends are leaving.
WAH.
 
But next year I'm going to be a senior.
 
Woot.
 
I should be studying for my Spanish test
BUT I'M AN IDIOT
and left my notebook in my locker ._.
 
I'm already failing that class.
 
Does anybody go on this website anymore?

It took me almost a week and a half to get through Clockwork Prince because of school and me being busy but guess what? I've finally finished it and I'm so happy.
 
SPOILERS
 
So if you haven't read it yet and you plan on it, don't continue to read this. And if you do continue on, you cannot get mad at me since I have warned you.
 
I am so happy that Tessa is engaged to Jem. Don't get me wrong I love Will but altogether I think Jem is much better for her. Even though the whole curse thing on him was fake, just .... Jem actually seems to love her, truly love her, and Will just seems ... bleh. Doesn't seem to love her as much as Jem and Jem is just a sweetheart and how can you not love him?
 
I'm truly excited at the fact that Charlotte and Henry are having a baby. Reading Clockwork Angel and a good majority through Clockwork Prince I questioned exactly why the heck they had married each other - considering he spends most of his time on his inventions and such, but when they had the "heart-to-heart" it really made me see that he does actually care for her and not just the things he works on.
 
As much as Nate was a huge a**hole I was sad when he died. Granted, he tried to kill Tessa basically and did a lot of bad things to others but what he was telling her before he died really made me think. Even if my brother were to do horrible things, I would probably end up forgiving him, especially if he were dying.
 
Mr. Lightwood - I hope that his Demox Pox shat kills him. I couldn't stand him in the first book and I couldn't stand him in this book. Blackmail though - that's good stuff c; I feel sort of sad for Gabriel because Gideon left and he was standing by his father's side even though I'm pretty sure he's brainwashed in some way.
 
Sophie and Gideon are so cute though.
 
As much as I like Cyril, Thomas's brother, I miss Thomas. I know that he wasn't a BIG character but I cried like a baby when he died defending the Institute and the fact that he liked Sophie was just AW. (referring to Clockwork Angel).
 
I'm about to start reading Clockwork Princess when the season finale of Face Off ends. I'm so excited though and yet preparing myself for a huge, huge, HUGE heartache.
 

 

 

I'm also thinking of making an account on here to talk about books. Reviewing and everything. But then again, everytime I do finish a book, I probably will forget so probably not . . . hmm.
 

 

 

 

I'm just going to rant for as second. If that's okay? lol just kidding. I'm not ranting about anything. But I'm excited for Friday since I don't have any school. My friend and I are going to see The Host! I've been waiting for this since, like, July? I believe. Anyways, adios.

I'm in a good mood for some reason.
And I feel happy about myself for once.
So I took pictures.
And tried to do makeup - fail as always.
So I should probably stop wasting it.
 

 

I need to work on more homework.
 

But Spring Break now, woop!

I'm running out of shitty drafts to use waaaah.
 

lol someone should find me a boyfriend :)
preferribly (Sp??) a country boy or southern gentleman please.

I don't think people understand how scared I am that I'm never going to find a guy who will ever like me, much less love me. I'm sixteen and still haven't kissed anybody and it makes me feel so ugly and horrible and worthless. It shouldn't but it does. There are kids who are way younger than me who have had sex and here I am, never even kissed a guy. I honestly think that I'm going to be alone forever and when I try to talk to my friends about it, they laugh. It hurts. And it doesn't help anything. Just makes me feel worse about myself. It also sucks when your friends have guys who are interested in them and they LOVE to brag about it to you and it's just like, oh ok. Make me feel worse.
 
Even in a guy were to want to marry me, which will never happen, I wouldn't be able to wear a wedding dress because of how short and boobless I am.
 
I just want to crawl in a hole basically because I'm nothing.
 

And
 

Whatever.
 

 
I want face surgery to make me pretty.
And boob job.
Please.
 

 

 

Meh.

really, really, really want
 

sadface

Top picture, my dog Bandit
http://www.polyvore.com/sitemodel_bandit/collection?id=799716
Other pictures of him
 

And then my hamster Chesney who I have had for not even a month yet (:
When I got him he was really small because he's the runt of the family (they had the mom, dad, siblings there) but he's getting bigger ._. sadface

I don't remember the last time I was ever truly happy about life.

Zac Brown Band // Knee Deep
 

I've finished reading City of Lost Souls yesterday.
My heart hurts and my tears were everywhere.
 
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Oh I don't know how this set is going to turn out because things kept showing up as there but not there in the editor soooo

I am running out of drafts to use and ideas of sets to make.
 
But I've had my hamster, his name is Chesney, now for a bit over a week. He's so cute though.
 
And the list of amazing books I've read is mindblowing ^.^
 
I'm still trying to keep myself alive though.